I have a capital case of blog block at the moment. I am not facing a blank screen, I am facing one with a big sign on it saying : "Time is running out and you don't have anything to say do you?" Scary.
Sometimes I imagine myself racing down the Lower Niagara River, a very fast river which screeches to a halt in a polluted lake. I am in a tub and as I race past the shores, I see all the things I want to see, do, read, write, talk about, write about, things I have to do short term and long term, joys headed by House Work. I whiz by. I miss it all. It's disorganization, frustrating and Stress. And it ends in a polluted lake no less.
My mind, during this joy ride, is stuffed with mental sticky notes to myself on everything I have read, heard or talked about to do with writing. These have been scattered all over hell and creation by a nasty cross wind. I'm stressed.
Hayley has issued a challenge - a Kick Ass Movement involving all Saskatchewan Romance Writer Guild members. It involves us all because we are all too ashamed of letting go for awhile, laxing and relaxing and altogether having to admit we aren't doing much writing these days. Nothing in an organized anyway.
I fell for it. I set a goal of finishing a manuscript, synopsis and pitch before the Surrey International Writers' Conference to be held in October. Hayley has volunteered to Kick Ass. She is going to need a darn fine pair of kicking shoes to keep me in line.
Eye on the ball, ear to the ground, nose to the grindstone and how are you supposed to get anything done that way? That is about how I feel.
What's wrong? Well, all those sticky notes need to be dwelt upon. There is information from conferences, meetings, blogs, books, magazines, the vast vast internet, conversations, workshops - it's endless and it's all swirling around inside exhausting me. Do you ever feel like that?
So what am I going to do besides change my email address so Hayley can't get me? (Actually, it's okay if she finds me - in fact I hope she does. I have a lot of respect for Hayley's mind and writing skills - and kicking shoes).
I prefer hatpins as motivational tools myself.
I am going to take a few days to find all the 'sticky notes' - ideas - I need and put them in loosely designated piles. Then, I am going to read a book and try to capture all this loose stuff so it doesn't scare me in the night.
I saw a tiger in a museum when I was small. It moved in under my bed and had me terrorized for years. I saw it again several years ago. It is faded, dusty and the hair is falling off. I can but hope the sticky notes moaning and screeching and scratching under my bed nowadays are found either, to be scared of sensational over-size dust bunnies or faded, dusty, hairless and ORGANIZED.
I hate that word. But the fact is: we all need to obey it now and then or sink like rocks in that polluted lake.
My apologies to the Ontario Government which has been successfully working at cleaning up Lake Ontario for decades, but I fear it is still one of the few places where one can still walk on water.
The book I have chosen to help me stack the stickies is called "Fiction Writer's Workshop" by Josip Novakovich. I have chosen it because it is highly readable and because the Contents page is- (ughh)- organized including all the stops from finding an idea to cashing the cheque. With thoughtful reading and contemplation, it should help me get all the ideas corralled. Contemplation. It tried it once. It's okay I guess.
Anyway, once I dispense with the cherry, berry and weed picking with grandchildren, a couple of days at the lake with them getting worn out by all that energy, keeping up with my kick ass duties, buying a used rowboat, decorating it for the Regatta, painting the cabin, walking to lose weight (it's working), cleaning out the garage at the lake of junk so I can reorganize the cabin contents and store the junk in the garage, get some volunteer work out of the way, and read for ME, I am going to put my tentative plan in action.
I refuse to promise to report back because my Guilt Allowance is already tied in with Kick Ass.
In addition to "Fiction Writer's Workshop, I am going to take, "Pride and Prejudice", some romances, Vesey's Seed 's, Landsend's, Regal's and Bits and Pieces' catalogues and may the book marks fall where they may.
Giggle quietly, if at all. Thank you.